And just for thought...
I've always been a little too timid, a little too introverted,
preferring to sit on a wall rather be in the center of the dance floor
and yet I've always had this need to be seen
but please don't look too hard for too long
because really I want you to move on quickly and at the same time never forget me.
I want you to know I exist but I don't want you to say my name.
I'd rather be a whisper in your ear than words from your lips.
Celebrate the love we share, spread the joy we bring
but please don't say it is because of me at any point
because really I want you to go forward simply just remembering me.
I've never liked being in front of a crowd, never been my style,
preferring to be back stage directing your wheels in motion.
I will admit though I've always been fascinated by applause
but please don't tell anyone
because honestly I want you to leave me alone without ever letting me go.
I wish I could find a medium, a nice place in the middle
where I can sit comfortably in the background and still be on fire without suffocating myself in my own smoke.
I am a smile on a gloomy day, a sweet hug during a thunderstorm
but please know I wish I could be more for you
and so much less than the brilliance that I don't use
because it would be easier to be satisfied if I didn't know my own potential.
I have been the quiet girl in the corner, that girl laughing on stage,
preferring always to be something in the middle
knowing I've never been happy with average
but please understand I just don't know where I fit really
and I wish I knew better how to smile so I could feel it.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.