And just for thought...
The years have rolled by but I didn't notice until now.
I can't tell you where I have spent my life.
Even the most recent days elude me
but somehow I have ended up here.
A girl with no past, no idea of the future.
New choices every day.
Do I go to school or find a job?
Do I pay off my car or get a place of my own?
Do I tell him how I really feel?
Or keep him guessing?
All at once my life overwhelms me.
When did I become so concerned with my future?
The years don't seem like they were so long anymore.
I have no sense of who I used to be.
All that is important is who I am now.
What do I want?
How do I get there?
My great journey into womanhood and I wish I could just stay a girl.
I wish I could find a sense of stability,
a security with only a few surprises.
Which way down this rabbit hole do I go?
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.