She twinkled in a way I had never seen before,
In a way that I thought she never would.
I could see the fear in her eyes,
The guilt she was waiting to receive
But I smiled.
I gave her permission to love
Because I knew that was what she needed.
I had seen the life she gave to me, to us.
I understood her life no longer is owed
To the offspring that she birthed.
No, this life she lives belongs to her now
And I am no longer her greatest concern,
No longer her sacrifice that she must bear
Because children get older.
Children sprout their wings and we fly,
Soaring and falling into our own adventures.
These knees that I skin are now mine to kiss
And her duty is no longer to keep me standing.
She spoke about him and I saw her joy.
I felt excitement in her humble smile,
In the words that she chose carefully
Because she was terrified that I would not accept,
I would not accept that she loves a man,
A man who is not my father
But I smiled and I felt happy for her,
For the courage that she has found to stand,
To stand on her own two feet,
The bravery she has allowed herself to love again.
She was like a school girl
Telling me about her crush.
I felt the need to protect her,
To ask her questions about his intentions
But all I needed to see that look in her eyes
And I knew my mother had found love again.
This woman who gave so much of her life
To so many finally found something,
Something beautiful for herself.
I felt her waiting for my judgement,
The accusations that she still owed something
To a man she had stopped being with
Years before she left, years before he passed.
In her bright eyes I saw her humanity, a woman,
More than just someone's mother
And it was a lovely realization.
In those shining eyes,
I was grateful that her life was finally her own to live.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.