If you want me, then speak the words.
You can love me.
I'm a fabulous woman.
Take me as I am though
because I am beyond the point of changing for a soul who merely finds me charming.
If you want to know me, past the generic conversations,
then be a man and ask.
You can have me but know I will make you sweat a little.
I'm a darling girl to know.
Accept what you see, I don't need paint to be who you want.
I am past the point of primping for a man who just wants a pretty picture.
Love me or leave me or turn the other way, it doesn't matter.
I have no need to cover myself up by using fancy prose.
I'm a simple girl but don't let me fool you.
I know what I am.
I live in the moment, never planning the next move.
It would be useless to plan, never really knowing what the next twist will be.
There is always a surprise waiting for me.
I don't do well in routines.
Errands bore me.
Lists annoy me.
I'm the girl who grocery shops without a list.
I'm the girl who hops into my car with no destination but finding a smile where ever I land.
What is more exciting than never knowing what the day can bring?
I'm the girl, sitting in the coffee shop for hours, wasting sunlight with her nose in a book.
I am the girl enthralled in random conversations with strangers, the easy listener.
I live in this day, rarely thinking about tomorrow but always with a dream at the tip of my tongue.
I wish on a star for the good of the world, for the betterment of myself, for the sake of love
I'm still the simple girl who still believes in rainbows and butterflies.
I know how this goes even though I haven't done this particular game since adolescence.
I'll act aloof, nonchalant, far from interested.
Your curiosity will rise, catching my eye before you turn away.
You will dance for me because you believe my card is filled with others' elegant feet
but never knowing I have always saved a place for you.
The minute I lay down my intentions, you will run.
A cosmo man, ten ways to shag the office hottie, that's you.
I know your type but i can play hard to get, too.
If nothing else, you will bring me amusement.
Life isn't much fun without some kind of chase.
The laws of attraction, twelve things a girl should never do, I know those too.
You will watch me smile, not knowing if I do it just for you or if I give it to everyone.
I'll never tell you more than the bare minimum, always twenty other better things to do.
Every time I leave you hanging, I know your the type that you will still run after me.
She says "Eye Juice" and I can't say I understand
but she's a toddler and it makes perfect sense to her.
Her hair curls more every day, her eyes shine brighter by the second.
She's a good mixture of myself and the man who helped create her.
I taught her how to belly laugh last week before I jumped in the bathtub, clothes and all.
We make memories that most mother's are scared of just for the joy of it.
Last night we shot soccer balls into our pillow net
and shot hoops with a Pooh ball into a box full of newspapers
while wearing her plastic pink eye shadow.
I don't know if she'll remember what I do now
but she'll never forget the love I have for her the rest of her life.
Maybe "Eye Juice" makes sense come to think of it.
I want to give her laughter by any mean's possible.
I want to sit with her when she's a woman, smiling at the memory of every dance we had.
I want to laugh at all the mashed potato castles we built, loving her more with each day.
I know I am ready to love like never before,
to lay down my heart without hesitation.
There is so much inside I long to give and so much I am ready to receive.
I can conquer the fear I own, the loneliness that plagues.
I can put myself on the line now.
I am ready to wake up next to a man's sweet face with no fear he won't be there.
There is an unbelievable sweetness inside me I am ready to share.
I am no longer coated with my shield of sarcasm, my barrier of skepticism.
A strange place for me to be after all the follies but it will no longer sour me.
I am ready to smile for him, laugh with him, to free my secrets I hold dear to him.
My tears can fall now and I won't be ashamed of my vulnerability, my humanity.
I am no longer ashamed to show everything I am.
I see a world completely open to me, opportunities are destined.
With each slamming of the door, another opens.
A star is born!
My time will come.
I step forward.
There is too much fire in my eyes to ever let life pass me by.
I am too stubborn to give up.
Within my hands, I hold amazing strength.
Within my soul, I carry a fearless faith.
Today may not go as planned but I will always have tomorrow as a new beginning.
I remember those who thought I was done for, believing I had been beat.
They never realized that something inside of me would never let me stop.
I spy with my little eye a place where impossibles don't exist.
Where ever life takes me, I will shine with grace, glow with hope.
Reach out and grab hold, I will come to you.
I keep my heart close to home, out of glances, but I can fall in love on a whim if you ask.
Looking into your eyes, I see an unknown world, full of possibilities that make me shake.
You walk near me.
Even when I am not looking, I know you are there.
My heart flutters with the sound of your name.
You make my eyes dance, my heart skip.
If you give me your hand, I will give you mine.
Without hesitation, without doubt, I know you will be gentle.
I see kindness in your smile, the melody in your life.
I look forward to seeing you every day without you knowing.
Reach out and grab hold, I could be yours.
There is a world beneath my smile and a universe within these eyes.
The years I have been on this earth do not give justice to the life I have lived.
I am turning 24 years old in a matter of days.
Just a girl, some may say,
but I am a woman in so many ways.
Twinkle in my soul, fire in my spirit.
I am everything anyone could possibly dream of.
Stories within me can make the strongest cry.
Stories that I have lived can make the strongest proud.
I have been across the moon and through infernos but I still stand.
If you present your hand to me, I will show you my world.
I speak in honestly, with love.
If you ask, I will tell.
My wrists may be slight, my fingers thin
but underneath it all, I have moved mountains.
Down the paths I go, I fear not what I face.
Pebbles leaped and skipped, the water ripples but my face is no longer obscured.
Sunlight always finds a way to my smile,
always managing to shine regardless of my frowns.
I rise in the morning, embracing the new day.
Every day is a new beginning.
Whatever touched me yesterday rests with the sunset.
The past has no bearings on what I do with my life today.
I am grateful for the joys in my life, cherishing little girl giggles and stolen quiet moments.
Memories stay, lessons stored.
I have thrown out the tragedy that was once me.
I can smile without guilt, cry without remorse.
Into the world I go, fearing not what is ahead.
Miracles happen every day, my impossibles proved wrong.
I can overcome.
Just by sitting here, I have made dreams come true.
I seem aloof but do not be fooled.
Corners could never hide much from me.
I am always aware of feelings not spoken.
You make me laugh with the words you attempt to manipulate out of me.
You are far simpler then you come off.
What you try to pull out of me leaves me breathless
but I always know how to bounce away from you.
I know the thoughts you try to give me.
There is far more intelligence in my giggle than you think.
My hands may appear small, delicate but I am by no means fragile.
You never saw the lion inside of me, not in its truest form.
Elegant in demeanor but I've laid in dirt,
enough to know lies from honesty.
You stare, willing spiteful words, but they never come.
Instead, I pat your knee, knowing what you really are.
We could sit together forever and my lips would never deceive me,
not the way you want them to.
There is far more fight in my sigh then you'll ever know.
I may be on another planet sometimes but I always know where your constellations lie.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.