And just for thought...
I miss him and a man wearing a Cubs shirt walks in around the corner.
I miss her and a black puppy who looks like her appears at my feet.
I wonder sometimes if this hole that I carry for them will ever be filled, will ever heal as the days go by.
I wish I could sit down with him again and talk about politics.
I wish she was still waiting for me at the door when I get home
but that chair is empty and her sweet face is gone now.
This loss, their loss hangs heavy on my heart and I keep going, wiping the tears that sometimes silently fall
because I have a life to live that doesn't include them anymore.
I miss the way we laughed, the way he would look at me when I thought he wasn't looking, when he thought I didn't know.
I wish I could tell him I now understand he was proud of me.
I miss the way she would lay her head on my lap,
the way her warmth always made me feel safe
and I wish I could rewind time and hold her a little bit longer.
These souls, these two souls that held the purest form of love are gone from my life now and sometimes,
sometimes their absence stabs at my heart more than I can bare
But I have a life to live without them now
and the love that they gave me will always be with me
even if these tears that form continue to fall on this paper.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.