And just for thought...
Perhaps if I had not wanted so much it wouldn't be this difficult.
All I know is that my feelings are very certain
and somehow still very confusing.
I grow weary of being alone but he is all I want.
Still, another looks at me, seeing his want in his eys.
So who do I choose?
He has the kindest eyes and sweetest voice.
I am not afraid of being with him
but he is terrified of me.
My heart aches, already have fallen in love.
I would give the world to this man.
I have no doubts he is where I want to be.
He touches me softly, a gentle stroke to my cheek.
I am scared of my feelings when we sit in a quiet room alone
but he looks at me as if he wants too much of me
My body reacts to him in a way I don't understand.
I want to experience these moments with him
but I am frightened of him.
Perhaps if I wasn't so lonely this would be easier.
All I can say is this battle will be lost either way
but somehow I will still win.
One I will have to wait for.
The other will come instantly.
Then or now?
Which do I choose?
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.