And just for thought...
I am everything you see and nothing you imagine
but you turn your head from the colors I show you.
I try to piece you together like a puzzle, never getting anywhere.
Frustrated at these feelings, I know we go nowhere.
For as much skin I have accumulated over the years, my heart still breaks with every rejection.
You give me nothing to continue on with this affair,
only the vague innuendos that you may have a slight interest in me.
In my life, I do not play guessing games.
I have no desire to analyze your sly winks, your slow smiles.
I taste your fear every time you look at me.
The gentleman you play but you are no different then anyone before you.
You ask me what I want but I can't tell you where I am.
At any moment, I could fall in love with you but I would never tell.
I just run the other way, hoping you chase, knowing you won't,
telling myself I don't give a damn.
You're just a man.
In the end, you only see what you want and I take my exit.
I deserve someone who is not afraid of what I can offer.
I could make you smile the smiles of all smiles but you will never get past yourself.
I like you too much, my heart is already vested,
but we still end before we ever had the chance to begin.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.