And just for thought...
I don't know what I was thinking, why my car decided it was time to see you.
It was a night full of memories for you, for me.
All I kept thinking was that I needed to see your face.
It was raining.
Our best moments always happened in torrential downpours.
I asked god to throw me a sign to turn my car around and not park, to keep going.
There was road construction, broken asphalt and foggy windows
but I didn't take them as signs to stop.
No, I kept right on going, letting my car find its way through neon signs.
I can't tell you why but I started to shake, loathing my limbs that couldn't remain steady.
Taking a deep breath, I grabbed my keys and ran out into the rain.
A woman stood on stage in the smokey bar singing about the boy she used to love.
How fitting, I thought, I'm here for mine.
He asked me what he could get a pretty thing like me but I just asked for you.
He said you had moved to Arizona.
You had finally done it, I sighed, but I never thought you would.
I was all right as I ducked back into the rain.
I asked god to send you my love, the best in everything you do.
Then the tears came.
You were indeed gone from my life.
This city somehow felt lonelier then.
It was always comforting to know you were somewhere down the street,
to know that at any time our paths could have crossed
though they rarely did.
You are across the country now and I know this was how it should have always been,
our paths in two different directions.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.