And just for thought...
Tonight it feels like I have no one.
Even this music does little to comfort me.
It's harder on days like these.
The shame looms upon my soul heavy tonight.
I dreamt of him last night.
It never means anything good when he comes around.
I wish I could talk to someone, anyone to even pretend they care.
All I want to hear is that I am all right.
I keep telling myself that I'm stronger than this, than him.
Haven't I gone through the worst of it?
I doubt my own words.
The phone lays silent tonight, like every night.
There are numbers I could dial but no one would pick up anyway.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.