And just for thought...
You are one of the few I have let inside.
Most never get a chance to see my fear.
You sat there, listened like you always do,
as I thought about how I would give anything to be in your arms.
You aren't ready.
I know I'm too scared.
What if I end up loving you too much while you are just humoring me?
And I must protect the pieces of my heart that I have left.
Too many times I have placed my heart below a hammer.
I have sacrificed myself too often.
I let you see my insides and you didn't turn away.
You said so many beautiful words perfectly strung together.
You told me I have a world of wonder still to come.
You told me I was strong enough to conquer this war that rages inside.
You have no doubts I am going places.
I couldn't believe you even if I wanted to.
I wake up each morning with your words whispering in my ear
but yesterday always has a way of bringing me back down.
You understand more than anyone.
You make me feel safe even if is shot lived.
I would give anything to be what you see.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.