And just for thought...
My life did not lead where I expected.
Pregnant at 20.
Married and a mother at 21.
Divorced by 23.
At a time where I should have sat among drunk girlfriends,
I held company with a growing belly.
At a time when I should have celebrated my youth,
I held a suckling baby to my breast.
At a time when I should have been learning what kind of man I deserved,
I settled for a man who would never appreciate me or our child
and then left him soon after.
Still, it has been worth my youth for this little gem in my arms.
When I find myself starting to drown in a puddle of self pity, the kid smiles.
When I fear I cannot go another day, the kid laughs.
When I start to believe I am not enough of what she needs, the kid throws her arms around me.
My heart walks around on two wobbly legs.
She is my tomorrow, reminds me of my yesterdays, and will always be my today.
I never thought I could love unconditionally but it is easy with her.
She teaches me how to live, reminds me to breathe, and never fails to make me laugh.
Through her, I can forgive.
Through her, I can love.
I never thought dirty diapers and constant spills would make me this happy.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.