And just for thought...
Your heart was so close to me when you leaned close to my screen.
I smiled, wondering if you knew how much I enjoyed feeling you against me but I dare not ask.
I can laugh with you while carrying a perfectly meaningless conversation,
never mentioning the dreams I may still have of you.
You don't want to know just as much as I don't want to tell
because it is far more convenient for us both to pretend those nights never happened.
So close to me, so very close, it took all I had to not reach out like I once had.
I wanted to be inside those muscular arms if just once more but still I sat.
There are a few wonderful memories I keep of you.
You woke up that morning, turned and smiled, as you kissed my shoulder,
the way a lover who actually cared would do but when you turned away, you never looked back.
I guess I'm still waiting, I know I am.
I sigh as you make some joke about my computer.
I pretend that it all meant nothing but you meant too much to a girl like me.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.