And just for thought...
You have gone from my life for a long time.
Still, you stay around in the back of my mind
because I drive down these same roads and I still see us everywhere.
Do you remember the Jiffy Lube?
The water fountain?
I remember the mound.
It's your ghost that won't leave my memories,
the knowledge that we once walked on that concrete together.
In the late hours, I can still feel your breath close to me.
I still hear your whispers echoing between the moonlit walls.
It is those hours that I wish for you the most
but not for who you are now, just the boy you were then.
I don't believe I will ever love anyone the way I loved you.
You had to leave.
I had to let you go.
Maybe if things had been different, had been better, you would be here
but tomorrow was never in the future for us.
I forgive you,
forgive you the man you could never be,
forgive the friend you once were to me.
I don't know if you would like who I became but it doesn't matter.
Maybe we never did.
Do you remember how you would always know what I was going to say?
How you would have a butterfly net to catch my tears before they came?
That's what I remember about you, the only memories that matter.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.