And just for thought...
I don't know what your plan is.
I don't mean to feel anything for you.
All I know is there a fiery battle sparking inside.
I watch as you place your hands around her waist.
I don't know who I want to hurt more.
Your new found interest causes me to believe I was nothing but skin to you.
Perhaps, that was really all we were,
two souls coming together for the simple solution to loneliness.
And somehow my heart slid into the equation.
I went into quarantine away from you,
pretending to sit next to you, holding a conversation you can't hear.
I don't understand your reluctance for me.
You are more than willing to mingle with her
and runaway like a small child from me.
I never meant to wish for something more.
I thought I could keep you at an arm's distance no matter how initimate we became.
You could play with me but never go the distance.
So, you tell me.
What was I to you?
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.