And just for thought...
I thought and thought and thought some more
but my conclusions were lost in blankets before the morn.
Along with the direction I was going and how I detest peanut brittle.
I can't say it makes any more sense now than it did then
but I will say my rigorous thinking brought clarity or so it seemed.
I saw you walk in this morning, read the cold email.
I wanted to go sit on your desk, make you look in your own eyes,
and just let this beast we've grown go
but I kept walking, stirring my coffee.
I vowed once more to be through with the likes of you or so I lied.
I dreamed and dreamed and dreamed some more
but my fantasies muddled together before the sun set
along with the plan I had created, the taste of peanut brittle on my tongue.
It still doesn't seem right any more than we did
but I can say I still believe in goodness or at least the concept it wears.
You smiled at me again as you stirred your coffee.
I wanted to ask what the hell you were smiling at
but I knew it would only be more empty words or so you've already told me.
I dissected and dissected and dissected once more
but the realizations only led me to more over analyzing
the intentions we will not admit, the tricks we're both addicted to pulling.
I can't say I'm right about any of it
but I do know I am far stronger than any woman you've ever met
and thus I conclude.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.