And just for thought...
For some reason, I spoke the words tonight.
I had imagined it so much better.
You were to take me in your arms.
Tell me you felt exactly the same
and we live happily ever after
but that is not what happened.
You told me you had feelings for me
but you weren't ready for what I wanted.
I told you I understood,
that I still thought you were wonderful
and would be more than happy to settle for friendship
but that is not what I wanted to say.
You are everything I need, more than I probably deserve.
I see more in you than I have seen in anyone before.
It's not that I love you.
It's that I could.
You make me feel wonderful and spectacularly normal,
something which no one could do this far
but that makes no difference.
You have pain you need to handle.
I respect you for being honest.
I will wait for you as long as you can.
I will be your friend if that's the only thing you will let me be.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.