And just for thought...
She is about as tall as me now.
Days, a matter of days, she will shoot right past me.
The smell of her fresh baby skin still lingers on the blankets that I put aside in her baby box.
Her small coos and gurgling laughter still echoes in her maturing voice.
The memory of her once electric blues eyes when we first met still stare back at me.
No longer does she fit perfectly into the crook of my neck
but I see her tiny face in her aging face.
She puts on her makeup in the mirror
and all I can see is her tiny self putting make up on my face
and giggling as she said she was "making mommy pretty".
I look at this young woman in front of me,
this young woman with her perfectly put together self,
and all I want is for her to stay my little girl in her princess pajamas.
I know this child who has walked around with my heart for the rest of her life will soon bloom.
Off into the world she will go, leaving me waving on our doorstep.
I will smile and I will be burst with pride and I will never tell her how much my heart will break
because this little girl who used to dance on my feet won't need mine to stand on anymore.
Soon it will be a phone call once a week to check in.
And as much as it hurts, my baby girl who grew so quietly inside me, will become her own woman.
She will find her own ground, make her own path,
And I will be right here, loving my beautiful little girl.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.