And just for thought...
I laid in your arms like we used to
but I didn't want to hold onto you, just the feeling you gave me.
A man's arms is what I long for, something you offered for a brief moment.
You rode me into pleasure, to the tide of a womanly gratification,
allowing me to be the creature that I hide behind my innocent smiles.
You lure the seductress out of me but you always did.
The earth does not shatter when you walk out that door.
I have little desire for a man to reside in my home.
Every now and then I need to release into a man, to crawl to sweet kisses,
to be touched in ways only darkness allows.
You know where to go with me, no instructions needed.
We understand what we are to each other and that is nothing.
I am at your whim for those few hours when you leave me breathless.
You walk in and smile, knowing where we'll go.
I know that it is meaningless, preferring it so.
Pulling me close, you explore with each caress.
I won't stop you, I don't want to.
We never had problems inside crumpled sheets, just everywhere else.
You took me beyond my skin last night like you always do
but I didn't want to hold onto you, just that feeling.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.