And just for thought...
There are so many words, thoughts that occupy
But I won't share them the way I would intend
Because the way they would fall
Would never be caught.
And I sit here with the young couple beside me,
The older couple across from me,
Finding so much comfort in the middle.
Next week I will walk away from something old,
Something that I took all the knowledge I needed
To something new, something fresh.
While it is not where my feet dream to land,
It is a welcome change,
A beautiful place to land in the middle.
Once upon my time I needed to be the best,
Better then you, then this couple beside me
Because I thought it determined my worth.
And what I have realized is that I no longer have that sort of energy, that cruel drive
But what I do have now is honorable intentions
And all I really want is to make a beautiful life,
Understanding I may not always be caught
The way I intended.
What I realized is that I am not angry about it anymore either.
In the quiet embers of the fire I once was
Still burns the girl with the bright eyes
And what will always shine from the lightning that I once threw is the woman I have become.
And now I sit in this quiet, humbled and inspired
No longer needed to be caught
In the way I thought the world intended.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.