And just for thought...
I do not want to sit here and lay blame but this anger grows too big to control.
You walked away from a life I thought could work, making it easy only for yourself.
The only thing you have to be is money in my pocket
and I am left to nurture the seed you planted.
You will be able to walk in the room and be her hero but I'll be the punisher.
I do not want to hate you but you give me very few options.
You always made me someone I wasn't.
I thought that with you gone, I was free to be who I am
but it's just another illusion in the long list of the ones you trashed.
I am not a vengeful woman.
I do not hold hate
but the thought of your abandonment leaves me with the nastiest bile.
Was it so hard to love us?
Was it that difficult to care?
You put out the idea first, this you and me thing,
and I fell for your bait.
You knew, eventually, the broken parts of me had no where else to go.
You knew I was meandering when we met
and you knew how desperately I longed for some direction.
You were just the wrong one.
I do not want to scream but you make me shake with rage.
This is not who I am and I can't stand you.
It is easy enough for you to walk in and out of our lives
because you know I will always stay.
You played your cards well and laid a nice trap for me
but you will never realize that I was smarter then you.
Your honor shows in your lack of actions.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.