And just for thought...
I've climbed so many mountains that they became hills,
Small monumental hills that were routine.
Somewhere I lost the fear of the conquer
And knew that I'd end up on the greener side
Even if I broke my heart many times along the way.
There has never been anything I could not do.
Somewhere inside the disconnected pieces of me
I always knew that, always knew.
I hid it in the crook of my smile,
The place I wouldn't show anyone even myself
Because I had to believe I was broken, too.
It was the only way to learn,
The only way I would get out of the caves I frequented.
I learned that part of my destiny was to be knocked down,
Part of my education was to learn how to stand,
How to stand right back up even when knees shattered.
I knew the only way to truly understand my own humanity
Was to whole heartedly accept my vulnerability.
While some mountains were not my choice to climb,
While some mountains have stayed with me,
While some mountains defeated me,
I understood that some fear I would never conquer.
I realize that maybe green didn't so look good on me.
I keep the pebbles in my pocket,
A skip in my step and a hole in my soul
Only as a constant reminder of all these hills,
All these hills that I've kicked a long the way
Because one day, some day I know I will soar.
This spirit never understood what it meant to back down
Though my swollen heart held me back a time or two.
It was time, time that whispered me along,
Encouraged me to be still just long enough,
Just long enough until the right wind came
And then I could leap,
Leap right off these mountains that I've climbed,
Heart first with all my might.
I have always understood my quiet strength.
I just didn't always believe I always had it
But mountains came and mountains have gone
And I know more than I have ever known before
There is not one I cannot climb.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.