And just for thought...
Papa, he loves me, I know that he does
but, Mama, you gave me guilt, you gave me sin in that big house of God.
Papa, I know you had dreams of crimson white for me.
An innocence, Mama, just like you
and I soaked myself in red, Papa,
but he loves me just like the Bible taught me.
Mama, he healed me in the form of my own child
though to you, Papa, this child will always be my scarlet letter.
Papa, you damned me before I had a chance,
gave me penance, Mama, from a sinful man.
A priest, Papa, you served me up as your ultimate sacrifice
like Abraham, Mama, but he never wanted that.
Papa, you pushed too hard, put fear in my small heart,
telling me to live life by God's way, Mama,
but I have, I swear I have, and he still loves me, Papa.
Mama, you placed me in that Holy Water as a babe,
cleansed my soul before I had the opportunity to become filthy
but, Papa, I know what you see when you look at me, at my child.
We're not sinners, Mama, we're good.
Papa, I heard everything you said, every false truth you told me
but, Mama, you told me I could be anything I wanted.
Papa, I just wanted to be me...
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.