And just for thought...
Foils and fumbles and we all fall down,
Always with the intention of getting back up
Because that's what we do.
We pile up our life like leaves in fall
Jumping in them, tossing them in the air
But life's leaves get heavier as we grow
And fall in our laps like bricks, heavy on our souls
With the intentions of chipping away at this life
One heavy leaf at a time, brick by brick.
I remember that euphoric feeling
Caring less about the bugs that crawled
Knowing I could always shake them off
But the older I get, the more they seem to stick
And I fall down when I try to get back up
With the intention to never give up.
I just never knew the leaves would start to prick.
I never realized how often my leaves would shatter,
How quickly they would blow away
Or hard it would be to keep the orange from fading.
I kick at these bricks that pile and break my toes,
Growing angry at this pile of leaves
That once I jumped in with joy, with joy
And I fall back when I realize how quickly it all deteriorates
But that is life, heavy with burden.
I fail when I need to rise.
I conquer when I thought I would break
And these leaves that pile just grow heavier
With these intentions to hold on to that joy
I once squealed with as a child
Not caring that this pile would blow away one day.
I never understood how much of me would blow away too
But that is life, constant with change
And heavy with loss.
I fall in these foils and I rejoice in this breeze
With my intentions in these leaves that fly by.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.