And just for thought...
Did you know you loved me at the first moment?
Was it something I said to make you fall so hard?
It was never in my agenda to let you into my heart
and yet you made it there almost effortlessly.
Did you know on this day almost four years later I would be sitting a loveless woman?
Does she love you like I could have but never did?
A breath away and still never able to touch?
You never knew what you had in me or maybe that was me.
I had no intentions on loving you even remotely
but you drowned me with your promises, losing my direction.
Are you angry that I cut off your love first?
Surely you saw I was not an easy one to conquer.
My eyes rarely met your own, my hands fidgeted too much.
Are you upset that you weren't the one to change me?
That you weren't the one that brought my smile back?
Did you know when we started we were doomed?
One look at you, I already knew where I would end up.
One look at you and I knew you were going to be a hell of a ride.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.