And just for thought...
They tell me I am looking good.
What am I doing?
I can't tell.
They wouldn't understand.
It is easy to hide under layers, to never show yourself if you keep on extra shields.
A skinny girl in a fat girl's skin but I have always been more than that.
It has nothing to do who I portray but more with what I didn't want people to see.
Fear has kept me covered.
This smile was for no one in particular, just a guard more so for me.
It was to block the emotions I have not been willing to show the world.
When the time comes, I free myself free from the burdens I put on myself.
The skinny girl emerges, I come forth.
Quieting the fear, I let go of the negatives.
I walk out of my skin into this smile.
It's not a matter of doing something different.
It's a matter of allowing myself to be free.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.