And just for thought...
I can't explain what pushes me forward,
What keeps me going when I should stop
But I know that I can't walk away when I should.
I would be wonderful at a million different things
And I would be horrible at a thousand more.
None of it would matter but I won't stop.
She needs to talk and he needs to cry
And I will always be the shoulder they lean
Because the idea of dissapointing hurts too much, mocks too often.
I have no idea what keeps me truckin'
When I feel like there is no point to it.
He needs my help and she needs my attention.
I will always put you first, always put you first
Even when I know I need a minute.
There are no complaints, no hesitations
Because I would rather you need me
Then forget me altogether.
There are parts about me that are too stubborn,
Parts about me that I wish I could let go.
Sometimes I look in the mirror
in complete unison with the skin I occupy
and in quieter times I struggle
but I won't ever give up, won't ever stop
because she needs a hug,
because he needs a kiss.
I can't tell you why after all these years
I still exist, still thrive, still push on
but I realize more every day the things I need,
the things I need lie in them all,
poetically fitting in this shoulder for you.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.