And just for thought...
It was a dream, just a dream, of you and I sitting together on a sunny afternoon.
It wasn't real, not like it used to be, not like when it mattered.
You rubbed your chin at me and I always knew what that meant.
It was something I said, something I did that you didn't agree with.
I admit it never bothered me when we disagreed, just when we disappointed the other.
I could never tell you most of the words I should have shared with you
And I was never able to listen to all those things you tried to teach me.
You were just a dream though under that sunny sky,
Drinking our coffee and watching the clouds speed by.
I heard you sing the other day when I wasn't paying attention,
When I was having a moment of frustration about a dumb little thing that didn't matter,
And it made me laugh thinking about all those flowers you never bought me,
Made me sad that you weren't waiting by the phone for me anymore.
I know that I've written more poems about you now that you're gone
Then I ever wrote while you were more than just a dream
But in my way, in the only way I know how, this is how I say goodbye,
This is how I hold on, too.
You said to me in that sunny dream that you were still watching,
Still tucked quietly where I had always put you,
Making me wish I hadn't tucked you away so often in my life,
Knowing that in our own way our relationship was always special.
It was just a dream, just a dream of me and you, you and I, drinking our coffee
And the more I think about it that is how I will see you again,
Waiting at the coffee shop for me, rubbing your chin at all the things I did after you left
But I know that your chin won't be rubbed raw for the things I did not do
Because since you went away, I finally listened to you.
I finally understood why you were truly rubbing your chin at me.
It was never out of disappointment, just out of love.
I have many dreams about you and I but none of them are real,
Not like they used to be but somehow they matter so much more, so much more.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.