And just for thought...
I cannot comprehend why you reassured me.
All you are doing to me now is tearing me apart.
I left you long ago only to return unsure.
You convinced me of my worth.
You told me I was strong, that I was able.
Slowly, I believed you.
I believed one day I would be steady.
I started placing my pieces back together.
I was good again.
I was confident again.
Then you changed.
You got so used to taking care of me,
made sure all sharp objects were put away,
gave me my medicine to cure this disease.
When I found the knives without slitting my wrists,
when I refused to swallow the medicine I absently took,
You were lost.
You want to take my sanity back, to put me back into that straight jacket.
You hold on stronger when I protest.
All I am trying to do is to become whole again without you.
All I want is control back over my own life.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.