And just for thought...
Regardless of what people think of me,
I am a far brighter star than they imagine.
Tears shed from time to time.
My hands shake too often but I won't admit it.
Regardless of fool's notions,
I do not crawl into bed with just any man.
I fall in love more often than I like to admit.
Every man I grace has a quality that enchants if only for a moment.
Regardless of the strength I embrace,
I sit when no one is looking because my bones are tired.
The exhaustion never seems to go away but I won't tell.
I would love to scream at my life's unfairness.
I would love to yell at everyone, at anyone but no one would ever hear
and it will never matter.
Regardless of the front I put up,
I would love to crawl inside someone, for someone to stroke my hair,
just for someone to tell me that it will be all right...
but I will never say that out loud.
Regardless of the fullness of my life,
I sleep with loneliness, this companion that I can never shake, every night
but understand all I will ever tell you is how happy I am.
Please understand that I need you to just accept that.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.