And just for thought...
I sent them out to sea,
Two men I loved as a young girl.
I watched the waves grab hold of the glass,
Take it off to an unknown land across the Atlantic.
It was to let them go, say goodbye to who we all once were.
I don't know if I was sad or relieved.
All I knew was I finally freed myself from the pain they caused.
Memories rushed back of the three of us together,
Our summer nights in vacant parking lots
And school days under fluorescent Catholic lights,
Al Greene in the front seat of his Corolla
And Bloodhound Gang in the back of his Camry.
I don't know if I will ever truly forget them
Of if I really want them to fade completely from my heart.
I do know their hold on me is now in the ocean, within that bottle.
I smiled to myself.
Looking down the beach, I saw me as that girl that used to laugh with them.
I saw that broken girl that sat with her knees to her chest, crying because of them.
Standing tall on the rocks, I stood, between them both, my hair flowing behind me.
We were all finally free of them.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.