And just for thought...
The leaves fall and I fall back into the moments of my life and I close my eyes, cherishing them all.
They swirl like a tornado around me at times
And I know they all had a purpose, each one.
I cannot always control the shakes but I can let go.
I can let go like the trees from which they fall.
He takes my hand in the afternoon
And I know his warmth will always bring me home.
Each leaf that lands is the death of a part of me,
Something about me that can rest now,
The parts of me that can finally settle,
And my heart can heal now, can find peace now.
I watch the colors change, feel once was a battle stop the fight, the red doesn't need to flow anymore
Because in this beautiful afternoon before Fall comes
I let these leaves go with an open soul.
Whoever I may be right now will bloom tomorrow
But for now I shed these things that have started to die, have started to fall away.
The air will start to get chilly and his arms he will offer
And I will always fall into him like a leaf in the wind.
He will keep me steady and I will keep him safe.
I can find solace in the things that I have lost.
We all have our seasons, our birth and our death.
That leaf lying at my feet I pick up.
I think of my father, of another season I have gone without him but I can smile now.
I can close my eyes and remember him clearly
Without the suffocating sadness he once brought.
He had his birth and he found his death
And somewhere in these leaves I have let go.
I fall back into these moments of my life,
Swirling around me like the tornado I once was
And I can settle into this skin,
Letting the needless parts of me die,
Letting the lovely parts of me come to life.
He smiles and we've made it through another lifetime together, laughing like children jumping into our fortress of leaves,
Celebrating these moments that have fallen,
Mourning what we cannot bring back,
Loving all the us there is to come.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.