And just for thought...
They say that the most touching words come from pain.
They could be right or wrong or neither.
All I know is that whatever pours out of these hands
I feel every word that forms.
As I sit here among these pieces of my broken heart
I know I feel every sharp edge they offer.
I see her sleeping in the corner
Though she isn't there.
I can smell her scent in the air around me
Though I know that soon enough it will fade, too.
I wish I could tell myself that it will get better,
Knowing that it always gets better,
But right now what I feel is lost.
Soon my babies will all fly away,
Realizing that I take care of so many
Because I am terrified of having no one left to care for,
Understanding at that point I must look inside.
Some of my most inspirational lines,
The lines that even make myself tear,
Came from a broken place
But I understand the power of setting them free.
I understand that once these words hit paper
The sorrow, the power of their sorrow,
Flies away into some unknown oblivion.
I have shared with you and you and you
The tiny swellings that I don't know how else to shake.
I want to make you feel, to make you feel
What I am trying to say,
Knowing that there is no guarantee
I will get my point across in the way I want.
I understand these fingers can't speak
But I know this is the only way my voice is heard
So I sit down in my chair, tuck my hair
And I let these painful inspirations fly.
So I sit here among my broken pieces,
These pieces that I continue to add to my bucket,
And I attempt to make sense of this plot twist,
Understanding that sense doesn't matter anyway.
I can still hear her soft breath, the creaks of her old bones
Knowing that it's just all in my head now
And not caring if it's real
Because comfort comes in all forms.
Her memory will hurt and my words will come.
Though I will heal,
I understand I will carry this broken heart around.
And for all the love she gave,
That will be the inspiration I choose to follow.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.