And just for thought...
The sound of your voice no longer held magic for me.
You were just a reminder of a lack of judgement on my part.
So lonely, I laid with you when I should have turned my desires elsewhere.
It all blew up in the end and I floated away, back to where I belonged,
but you still haven't let go of me though your life remains uncertain.
I wanted to scream at you, to shake you away from me.
You wouldn't have understood.
The melody in your deep southern draw used to make me smile
and I would once count the moments until I was back in your arms once again,
forgetting the damage done by our selfishness.
I tried to walk away from you before the cracks formed
but you didn't get it.
You just kept laying your cloak down over those puddles to cover our holes.
I wanted to slap you, to make you see what you wanted from me I wasn't willing to give.
I wasn't willing to give it to you or to anyone.
You thought you could come to me and the pieces, our pieces would fall together
but we were never that simple, our life would have never been that simple.
Erase how we started, right? Just ignore all the flaws of our foundation.
We'll never get away from the dark that would plague our happiness.
There would be no honor in the two of us.
Still, you call and believe that we are still intact when all I want is for you to run away.
The inspiration you once inspired in me now is just overwhelming.
There is no place in my life for you now, maybe there never really was.
The unattainable is more attractive when it is truly unattainable.
I never wanted to be caught.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.