And just for thought...
In this pale sun, the days fall away,
A lovely start to a poem that I had just the other day
That fell away out the window of the passenger side car
And I knew that I would never again touch those words,
I would never remember that prose ever again.
My mind sits in metaphors, lies within lines
That sometimes I can't reach,
That sometimes I can't escape.
My creative flow blooms rampid but falls away
When I'm caught in the tedious of actually living
Because I would always rather live in a dream,
One that cradles me into sweet oblivion.
Pieces of who I am fall all around me.
I battle with picking them back up,
Placing them back into this broken bucket
Because maybe they jumped
And those parts of me no longer want to be a part of me.
Maybe they leaped for a reason bigger than us both.
I must find acceptance in the parts that are lost.
There is beauty in what is no longer.
It makes room for what can be.
He asked me where I wanted to be in five years.
I sat and I thought and I smiled
At all the possibilities of where these feet could land
But all I knew was that I was content in where I am
Even in the jagged of all the edges I would like to smooth.
My trajectory is forward and that must be the way I point
Though the days fall away quicker with each moment.
This skin flakes off but my heart grows wiser
With each mole that forms
With each wrinkle that hangs
And I can accept the seat I occupy right now
May not be the seat that I warm tomorrow.
The actuality of who I have become is a dream
That I never thought would become a reality.
This pale sky will fade into a brilliant orange
And then a deep dark blue twinkled with bright lights.
The light within me will fall away,
Will become something different, maybe more,
Then what it is right now, maybe less.
And there is loveliness in my evolution,
In the way I lose prose to a breeze,
The way I fall back into these lines,
The way I can find my way back to a dream.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.