And just for thought...
This would be much easier
if I could actually tell you how I feel.
Would you listen?
Even if I start screaming obscenities?
Even if I throw lit cigarettes at your feet?
I bet you would realize what you have done.
I could let you finally see.
How long do you think we could have kept this up?
You weren't supposed to get to me.
Do you realize how I would love falling into you in the late hours?
Or getting up next to you in the early morn?
You only think of yourself and ask too much of me.
Wouldn't it be simpler just to cut our ties?
I will stay.
I cannot make myself turn and leave.
Do not believe that's it's for you though.
It is more the fear of being alone.
Would you sit still while I trash your name?
Throw careless insults in your general direction?
It would go smoother
if only this was how I felt.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.