And just for thought...
You kissed me last night like you used to.
I know it was a dream but it felt real all the same.
Your hair was short, the way I used to make you cut it.
You were wearing the dark blue jeans that always made me blush.
Most the time, dreams are the only place I still think of you fondly.
You're not much of a man in reality.
I justify my reasons for once loving you.
I remember the look you gave me.
It was enough to send me to my knees but you wouldn't be able to do it now.
I see you under my moonlight when my eyelids close
when I create the circumstances of our affair.
I'm supposed to hate you but I can't.
Your eyes still get to me, even your lying heart makes me feel something for you.
I know the worthless man you are but you are whatever I want you to be in the dark.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.