And just for thought...
What is that I want?
Something I can't figure out.
Some days it's easy to be alone, to only have the entertainment of myself,
and to be completely satisfied with my solitude.
Other days, I look around me, cursing the loneliness that I feel,
because I know the spirit inside of me is dying to get out.
He asked me what I was after and I had no words to describe.
I go from one extreme to another.
By all accounts, he is a wonderful man but I cannot make a stand either way.
I told him I wasn't ready for his labels but i don't want to be blown off either.
Going home every night I look around and sigh,
knowing that eventually a man will join my little family.
I can't tell if that elates me or depresses me.
I make the rules but do I still have the capacity to compromise my life?
Is he the one who will invade my home?
Or will I willingly lower the gate?
I can't figure that out either....
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.