And just for thought...
If I were to take that seat next to him, would he accept me?
Would he able to look past these circumstances?
Or would he turn away?
To fall in love with a man, a journey I can't say that I am scared of or ready for.
Both are the same thing in the end.
If I were to lay down with him, would he want more?
Would he be able to catch me before I grabbed my purse?
Or would he pretend to sleep as I shut the door without a word?
To be with a man longer then a moon cycle, I can't say I want it or need it.
Both are very good reasons to not have him at all.
If I were to push him away, would he stay?
Would he be man enough to stand even when I push?
Or would he grow weary of being tested?
To find a man like in the dreams I dream, I can't say it's a reality worth chasing or running from.
Both end up nowhere anyway.
At the end of the day, I'm just a girl who has been in love with writing her entire life. I am full of quirks, anxieties, fears, joys, laughter. And all I have wanted to do was give the world a smile.